WANTED

On a whim, processing the idea of 'to thine own self be true'...i am faced with the fact that indeed  holding true to my heart's intent  means that I am...


NOW AUDITIONING: for a modern day Jimmy Stewart...

Aside from integrity, and a little awkwardness; must move like Fred Astaire, possess the wit of Oscar Wilde, the charm of Errol Flynn and the rugged heroics of a Die Hard Bruce Willis. Must be adventurous, yet pragmatic, grounded and yet not afraid of cliff jumping...Must fear God and a woman's wrath. Must desire and cherish an imperfect, wonder-filled life. Please note, dear George, you will not be asked to lasso the moon...well, at least not without a co-pilot. Please see the Director

#CandyHeartRejects make lame #valentines

...so i owe thanks to this inspiration for this one from a twitterverse trend hashtag...hehe


#candyheartrejects are all the same 
they look so tasty but they are oh so lame 
one flavour, one note, it must bore you to death 
vanilla bean and bourbon are on my breath 

#candyheartrejects are good at parties 
they tango beside the dish of smarties 
i grew to appreciate truffles and wine.
to never accept what's less than sublime 

#candyheartrejects your time has come
you're a dumped dish of sugary scum
your cinnamon lips no longer tempt 
tHis healthy heart's kissing Cupid instead 

the Lady is working on patience

there is an invitation at the door 
In a scented envelope 
carefully scripted to you 

in the practice of courtship
my heart asserted not to enter
but to wait; so...

i gave it to the footman
to quietly deliver 
so as not to disturb you

...but i ran past him in haste
and gingerly, yet expectantly 
placed it there myself 

i don't even know if you dance
and i've never let anyone lead
so this is an invitation for adventure
and if grace or folly ensue it won't matter
as i have stood on the edge of the floor for too long 

seeing colours

in the space of the break
you are the light that filters in
and in the crush, your kaleidoscope
illuminates my heart again

the journey continues

the foundation erupted 

and swallowed me  

in the darkness, ever so slowly 

like Alice, falling down the rabbit hole 

so painfully slow, 

fear became a great curiosity  

subdued by the catalysts of discovery 

and Alice gets comfortable in her own skin

  

 

BC/AD along The Way

“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” -T.S Elliot 

I have thought this passage and T.S makes me dizzy thinking of life as a cycle of beginnings and ends.

My heart is perceiving beginnings and endings differently. I see my soul's journey and destination as a linear life experience. Measured not of beginnings and ends , but rather of milestones, and experiences along a path that is continuously moving forward, step by step full of purpose and destination. Not with beginnings and endings. Rather, I am challenged to reflect on every milestone as having it's own 'BC' and 'AD' where I define myself or the response I have around that moment on the path of the journey. It's more like walking the reception line of life, shaking hands, kissing babies, stubbing toes, wiping tears...but always moving on, walking forward. It is a pilgrimage on a path with people and places and events measured in before's and after's.

Life has a new meaning in BC/AD -

I define it simply as before the catalyst and after the discovery along the way.

Can we dare ourselves to move along whether joyful or hurt? Can we compassionately observe and carry on our way? Can we define ourselves and grow in response to each BC/AD of each major milestone whether painful or joy filled?  Can we define those milestones as simply rest stops on the journey where we may wrestle with God for a while or simply appreciate the richness of the moment?

Dear Life, make me a disciple of this way. And, please, don't make it too lonely. My heart desires Love.

Perhaps Love weaves it's way in, for a time, when we connect with someone willing to share the journey and the milestones with us. Some will grow weary, some will stumble. Some will walk with us and some will  leave us on their own journey. Some will carry, some need to be carried, some will sprint up the mountain but wait for us at the next milestone, and some will sprint on.

But each moment at each stop along the way isn't a beginning or end; it's an experience that changes everything we knew and a discovery that changes everything we hope for next. In our human experience it often gets trapped as a memory and stifles us. If it is an experience, it enables us to observe, feel and discover as we continue the journey...and hopefully grow in our light.

This is my CAMINO TRAIL

I have discovered from the last milestone that I can change the pace and my perception so I don't miss Love when it merges on my path, won't lose the way when Love distracts and  wont fail from fatigue when Love needs to be carried. I will make my soul's pilgrimage count.

teachable

Dear Love,

help me to stand when integrity is at stake

help me to forgive to keep destruction at bay

help me to have peace beyond understanding

help me to heal my heart when it is overwhelmed with sorrow

help me to dance when i am paralysed by fear

help me to sing when my tears keep coming

help me to know God in the midst of pain

help to hold comfort in my bosom

help me to take the higher road

help me to take a fresh canvas and paint a picture worthy Your true purpose

teach me all these and more

I am teachable

I am reachable