lacing up and figuring things out

Fatigue created the casualty -really - it's that simple - and yet so complicated
Fatigue has many facets - but I only know the story of two

when we are tired beyond repair
we cannot resist the urge to be bitter
we cannot see balance - but we run faster so as not to trip
we cannot resist temptation to keep the fury of remaining out of step
we seek more and more adrenaline
it is empty energy
So we run a race unto ourselves convinced we are doing it for others -
but
we forget the people bearing water and waving flags
we quickly get up and run away from the people who have bandaged our wounds
as soon as we can run again

and if we two are both doing it - then we are just running a relay in circles
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why are we running? why aren't we just dancing?